It only takes being rejected once for me to never ever ask anyone anything ever again.
I remember once someone telling me that it’s easier to destroy the light inside you than the darkness around you. And I’ve really never gave it much thought until now.
listening to John Mayer makes me reminisce about this time last year. when I was in the worst -emotional- shape of my life. many times I would listen to the cadence of his voice echo off the tiles of my bathroom while I sat in my tub, laying in a pool of hot water for as long as it took for the heat to rise off and then I’d shiver. how the lyrics would simultaneously make me feel hopeless, and hopeful.
that’s how I feel now. walking a tightrope between the two.